Monday, September 21, 2009

names and words and pieces of paper

the NAME exists as a word on paper (see ). that's all it is. it is the belief in the paper's authority over our lives that gives it any standing.

a calling is something different. it is the name spirit whispers out to each of us. nobody else can hear it, yet it is the breath that blows down the house of cards.

just ask alice.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

why worry?

i worry about the globalists' plans for world domination. but i'm not letting it go. i'm certainly not forgiving them their abuses against all of humanity. you want to tell me i should just get over it, that there's nothing i can do about it. but you're wrong. there's plenty to worry about when a war is being waged against all of us. denial won't make it go away.

where are the veterans of war? why are you not talking about what you experienced, so that we might know what war is really about? why do your voices remain silent? how will that help? if we don't talk about the past, if we refuse to learn the lessons, we will continue to repeat the same mistakes over and over again. we don't have to let the war continue. we can make it stop. open someone's eyes today. tell them something they didn't know or were afraid to think about. what are you so afraid of?

a few years ago, when i started blogging about conspiracy stuff, my husband grew fearful, worried the government would come and get me. well, that never happened. sure, they censored me, deleted my comments, they sent their trolls to try to derail my conversations at various message boards, and sometimes even in the comments of my own blogs, but that didn't hurt me any. actually, their antics only proved the conspiracy was real. but i'm no threat to anyone. i live here in tennessee with my husband, two kids, and a dog, we're not bothering anyone. were the army to come marching up my street to forcibly remove me from my home, then people might have to start looking at my words a little more closely, to see where the perceived threat could be found. the bad guys aren't gonna get you for speaking your mind.

that is where freedom starts, in the mind. your fears prevent you from saying what you really think, this reinforces the groupthink mentality that is presented as public opinion. it's all bullshit. what you think everyone else thinks has been fed to you through mass media and marketing (propaganda). it's everywhere, the lie is. but you do have truth within you. if you are afraid to share your truth with others, you only help perpetuate the lie.

Monday, June 15, 2009

you call yourself a friend...

you pitiful little guruboy
wanting idiots to follow you
thinking you have some answers
that might help them
when you can't even help yourself
and you call yourself awakened
while you walk around in denial
with your eyes closed tight
so you can't see what's real
and you can live in your land of makebelieve
with your mindless herd of asskissers
fauning over every false platitude
that spills from your lips
words that other more eloquent
bullshit artists used to fool you
your life is a lie
you are acting out your role
no different than the sheep
you think you are so high above
you suck
you delete my comments
because you can't stand truth
you are terrified of it
because truth might set you free
and you are afraid
that if you were truly free
you would just fuck everything up
so you live the life others have told you
is the life you should lead
instead of ever thinking for yourself
and making your own decisions
you have no wisdom to share with the world
you only have pretty words and lies
trickery and deceit are the tools of your trade
you profit from the broken dreams of others
selling enlightenment to those willing to pay
(they must not know the cost of giving up
their ability to think)
i'm not buying that crap
not from you
or from any other scumbag guru
so kiss my redneck anarchist bitch ass!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009


i might just have to throw a really big hissy fit....

forgiveness, my ass! that's just permission to do it again.
no. hell no. no fucking way.

no compromises.
no meeting in the middle.
not this time, dammit.
not ever again.

no more blaming.
you fucked up and you know it.
own it.

Friday, May 8, 2009


another comment (moderated/deleted) inspired by david miliband's blog

there is no such thing as "free society" - civilization is the opposite of freedom. but you know that. you know that to be governed is the opposite of freedom. you know that freedom is the number one enemy of the state. you also know that there exists no government that does not depend upon war, and that peace will only come about with the destruction of the heirarchical structure of "civilized" society, in other words, freedom. war is not peace, but freedom would be were we all not brainwashed to fear it so.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

questions for david miliband

as my comment may or may not be approved by the moderators on his blog at, i'm posting it here.

is in reply to the following blog:

which included a link to the following speech:

dear mr. miliband,

i don't understand how we are supposed to believe that the institutions which rely upon war in order to govern us all, how are we supposed to believe these governments are going to ever make the war stop?

likewise, i don't understand how the institutions which created this current economic crisis are expected to fix the problems that they created? how does this make any sense?

if i took my car to a mechanic, and in the process of fixing one problem, they created a worse one that caused the engine to explode, i don't think i would be taking my car back to that same garage again. would you? but this seems to be what the public is expected to accept without question, if the media is any indication of anything at all.

as far as helping those whose lives have been devastated by war, i think it would be far more effective to stop bombing the place. how does that fit in your plan? are we supposed to pretend that the huge sums currently being spent on waging war are justified by throwing some, in comparison much smaller, amount at humanitarian aid?

Sunday, February 15, 2009

government is nothing more than words on paper, written by liars and thieves

originally posted at

my family has a story, i bet yours does too, but it probably doesn't agree with the official history. my family's story turns history on its ear. everything they taught us in school is upside down and backwards. we can start in jamestown, since i know the paper trail goes at least that far back, but the story goes back much, much farther.

i pay taxes on a small piece of land that has been in my family since before white men came to north america. i'm still not sure why, or how this makes any sense. there was a settler at jamestown virginia who fell in love with and married a native woman. this isn't surprising, considering there weren't any other women around, only men and boys were allowed onboard seagoing vessels. ship captains were mighty superstitious about that. there's monsters in those waters, and women bleed. you don't want your little wooden boat smelling of blood, do you? oh no. well, anyway, this settler's wife, her family grew tobacco. he was making himself quite a little bundle selling the indian tobacco to the other settlers. and well, there was a dispute over the price he was charging them. so they locked him up in the boat there, to await trial. somebody in the family has his diaries. i've seen a photocopy of some of the pages. he mostly wrote about his wife, how beautiful she was, how intelligent she was, how fast she was learning to read and write english, what books they were reading. he asked john smith to bring back more books, when he returned from england with more supplies. he did not take the charges against him very seriously. they hung him without a trial, and brutalized his wife, left her for dead on the boat used as her husband's prison, adrift at sea. this is the story i was told. this is how government works. this is what was done to all of us, not just the native americans, but your ancestors, as well. she survived (which is more than you can say for most of the men at jamestown), and gave birth to twins...

in 1714 "Governor Spotswood appointed the Reverend Charles Griffin as schoolmaster to educate and christianize the Indian children in the first Christian Indian School in Virginia."

we were "christianized" and made to be ashamed. the spirits of our ancestors, who are here to help guide us and help us, we were told are suffering eternity in hell because they didn't pray to the right god.

"When I was a boy, the Sioux owned the world. The sun rose and set on their land; they sent ten thousand men to battle. Where are the warriors today? Who slew them? Where are our lands? Who owns them?"
~ Sitting Bull

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

on groupthink, or herd mentality

[groupthink] involves believing that the members of your group are superior than people who are not in your group. (to say that some are “higher evolved” or “spiritually enlightened” is a prime example of this) groupthink also involves mind-control …. oh, but nobody wants to talk about that subject. i got some blogs i wrote, some articles i copied, too… mob enforcement of the rules. it involves giving away your freedom to act and think as you see fit in order to belong to the group. and that is my main problem, being an anarchist and all.


forming groups does not unify us, it divides us (us being all of humanity)! those who seek unity and world peace usually do so by forming some group or organization, and that act of separating themselves from others goes counter to the original intent of the group! but it feels good to be part of something, doesn't it? we don't want to be told how we are being manipulated and controlled, oh no, it's my choice, i'm doing the “right” thing, i care… yeah well, people need to start thinking about how the structure of our society harms humanity, rather than just taking it for granted that's how it is and how it should be and always will be.


seemingly everyone does it to some extent, everyone who justifies their beliefs with “the Bible says” … and you know good and well that is no different than “my teacher/guru says” … proselytizing is all the same religious indoctrination through fear of the consequences, regardless the outward appearance…. the worst are the ones who claim they don't do it, who think their religion is the ONE TRUTH that applies equally to all people, thus making it okay, this sort of religious exclusivism, it's even written into their rules (and they call it “helping” when they try to convert you to their beliefs)…


religion serves to prevent us from finding truth, within. sure, they say things to the contrary, they always do, them that tell lies. and the reason they tell those lies is because they are too afraid to find their own subjective truth, they feel that the objective Law that rules their lives should rule everyone's life. it's a lack of respect, mostly for themselves, they doubt their own ability to find their own truth. and it illustrates a profound lack of respect towards anyone and everyone who does not share their religious beliefs, to have this desire to convert, to preach their wisdom to others, thinking their subjective truth applies objectively to others.

it's about a lack of respect. gotta say it again, i suppose. because when you do find your own inner truth, it doesn't matter what anyone else says about it. you just KNOW. and knowing that your truth is not dependent upon what anyone else holds to be true, you gain respect for those who have found their own personal truth. this outrageous attempt to share your wisdom with others, to expect them to believe the things that are true for you, is symptom of a lack of connection to what is true. it's an ego thing.


communication is not about reaching a consensus and calling it “truth”
communication is about trying to find your own words to describe your own experience, so that you may share it with others. not to convert them to the truth of what you know, but to learn more about the things you don't know. <3


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To convert (a person) from one belief, doctrine, cause, or faith to another.


a method for systematically changing attitudes or altering beliefs

it's called euphemism… get a grip.
not only that, but brainwashing is when you attempt to change an adult from one beleif system to another. when it is done to children we call it “education”

it happens all the time, everywhere, people don't just lie to others, they lie to themselves. pretend that what they do is okay because everyone does it, or pretend they aren't doing what everyone else is doing, or justify them doing it, because it's different when we do it, we are the good people and they're the bad ones.

the original meaning of the word “anarchy” meant freedom. so why is it that myspace blocks any images with that word in the filename? it violates their terms of use, apparently they think it is “violent and offensive material”
why is freedom not allowed?

you crazy, bitch!

sanity simply means to act in accordance with what the majority of people consider to be socially-acceptable behavior. it's the measuring stick that says who is better at following other people's rules. to be labelled "insane" is the threat, the punishment, that keeps meek people in line, acting right, from fear of being a social misfit and outcast from the group.

to think or not to think

to be given "beliefs" is to be either:

indoctrinated (what is done to children who have not established their own personal belief system)
brainwashed (when the same thing is done to adults who already have established beliefs)

this is why the modern education system fails. it is designed to prevent students from learning. our "education" is an attempt to prevent thought from happening. all information is pre-digested and downloaded, then regurgitated at will (such as when they are filling in little circles on those tests).

is this how you learn, how you think? are those thoughts your own, or are they straight from someone else, some authority (the Bible says... or as they say nowadays, my guru said...) instead of from that thinking part within you? i learn through experience, through my subjective perceptions of such personal experiences. anyone can memorize the times tables, but in order to multiply you must know how it works.

we are not machines, though we can choose to operate as such. that is our choice. to think or not to think. it's up to you. the abusive authority, the belief in groupthink, would threaten you with horrible consequences should you choose to think for yourself, but to allow the group or an authority to think for you is always your decision.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009


we all pay taxes. we know those tax dollars are being spent hand over fist to kill people who have never caused us any personal harm. we are complicit in our silence, in our consent to be governed by such a corrupt system that human lives are imagined to be expendable, in believing what we all know, deep down inside, are lies.

we knew all along that voting for obama was going to change nothing. we all knew it. we knew all along that it is utter foolishness to send money and warplanes to israel, so they can kill more palestinians. we all know it. we all know it’s wrong. propaganda exists, not to make us believe the lies, but to make us afraid to admit we disagree.

just look at the nonsense they want us to believe!! like the UN is going to stop a war that its very existence depends upon? nah… ain’t gonna happen cap’n. what needs to happen is to simply stop funding it. no more defense spending (defense, yeah right) no more war. simple. hellfire and damnation, no more defense spending, no more of that economic collapse they keep telling us about in the news….

we really could be free. we really could. so what is stopping us? i see no obstacle in the way. i only see masses of humans believing in obstacles that don’t really exist. i know. i know you know, too. problem i see is that there’s too many don’t know they know.

freedom, undefined

freedom, as i see it, means that i get to decide for myself. freedom, if it were real, would mean that nobody has higher authority over what decisions i make. freedom would mean that nobody gets to decide for me what i choose to do, or to think, or to believe is true. *and* freedom would mean that everyone, each individual person, deserves the same respect to make their own choices for themselves. i do believe in our ability to be free. not only that, but i see it as an essential need, this human instinct to be free.

freedom isn't about the majority. freedom is about each individual person choosing to stand in their own power, rather than giving that power away to abusive authorities, or to some group or organization, in the hopes they have our best interests at heart. can i realistically see humans choosing to be free? sure i can! not a problem. what i cannot realistically comprehend is how the current system that is based upon control and manipulation could ever sustain itself. it is doomed to fail from the get-go, as a flawed system it must collapse. the tricky part is, when it collapses, do we again allow another system based upon control to take its place? i believe everyone would rather be free than choose to be governed (govern means control), if they were aware that it is their choice to make for themselves.