Monday, April 28, 2014

the next chapter

i think i don't wanna be the anarchist bitch anymore.  and i think this blog is probably pretty much done, but like my spacey stacy blog, it will still be around.  anyway, in case you missed the announcement, here's my new blog, the next chapter

Tuesday, March 11, 2014


a very young,
very messed up girl
fell deeply and madly in love
with a very messed up man
even as messed up as she was
she knew that together
they would only get worse
so she set off to get better
without him.
she found some one
just one, but that's enough
who was kind to her
and who allowed her
the space and time
needed to heal
and she got better
and lived happily ever after
the man in her dreams
(who wasn't really there
when she needed him)
chose differently
and he never got better.


he never knew
but he showed me
he never looked
to see it himself
he never knew
what was there
all along, forgotten
ignored, denied
he didn't know
he never saw
i didn't know
he was too much
a coward!
afraid to look
inside his own heart
to find the love
he thought he never had

Saturday, March 8, 2014

too late (from november, 2013)

it's not sad, it's too late to be sad
for the drug addicted star that self destructed
like all the other drug addicted famous people
the ones you hear about in the news every day

you are sad because you want to believe
in the lie they call the american dream
but it's as dead as that junkie whore
who sold her soul to the silver screen

that's what is so sad
is that nobody noticed
when she really died
drugs kept her animated
as though she were alive
but something inside her
died long before that
maybe it was hope that died
that spark inside
that keeps us going
the ones who survive
and leaves the rest
lying in the dust

but wait! there's more!
you can get a free ipad
with orthodontal work
or discount botox injections
yeah, maybe that will help

we don't need more dead heroes...
dead poets, dead artists, dead rock stars
another dead mystic to hang from a tree


untitled, from yesterday

brick walls and denial
stockholm syndrome
cognitive dissonance

everybody deserves
to be treated with respect
even if they don't think so
it is up to you, what you do

"what if she wants it?" is no excuse.

Thursday, March 6, 2014

white light junkies

in the eye

are they starting 
to sound like 
the wives of drunks, 
justifying the abuse?

they need 
to turn 
some of their 
"healing energy" 
on themselves

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

work in progress

if you give unconditional love
to an abusive asshole
you will get abused by them

at some point it's not about the kind of forgiveness
that enables the cycle to continue anymore,
and becomes an issue of loving yourself enough
to not put up with their harmful behavior.

love by itself isn't enough to make a relationship work,
especially not when one (or both) partners won't even try.
and it's not easy, to walk away from everything
you put into it trying to make it work, feels like failure,
like if you could have tried just a little bit harder,
or if you could have loved them just a little bit more, maybe...

but maybe doesn't count
because unconditional love is that kind of trap
that abusive assholes love to use
to manipulate their victims.
no matter how much they blame you,
or the alcohol, or the drugs, or their parents,
or their job, or their social status, or whatever the fuck
they gotta blame somebody or something else,
it's not your fault they're like that.
it's not your job to fix anybody else.
that's all on them. you can't help.

your love,
no matter how much you love them,
it isn't enough.
it only enables more abuse.

so if love were a choice,
why would we do this to ourselves?

i don't think you get to choose love,
you either feel it or you don't.
like all the other feelings,
maybe even moreso than the rest,
it isn't rational, you can't rationalize it,
it doesn't make sense.
that doesn't mean it isn't valid.

when you love somebody too much,
they take it for granted you always will,
no matter what they do.
you wish that were true,
sometimes it just isn't.

Saturday, March 1, 2014

more poetry from yesterday...

what if...

what if love was a gift
not an investment
and you stopped
expecting a return?
what if love were free?
no price to pay
no debt owed
no contractural fees,
administration costs,
nor balances due?

your mileage may vary


what if love was a train?
would yours have wrecked?
where would it go?

when my ship came in
i was waiting for a train
maybe the love boat
would have been better

chattanooga choo choo
was turned into a hotel
no passenger trains
come here any more

and johnny cash
dead, still sings
songs of trains
and love

Friday, February 28, 2014


some things cannot be rationalized
because there's nothing rational about it
it doesn't matter what you might say
your mockery doesn't change it
maybe you can't hear the music
doesn't mean there is no reason
for them to dance...

besides, it's just more divisive rhetoric
pitting you against all them others
who don't think you should decide for them
because their faith isn't up to you
nor is it up for public debate
being a personal relationship with the divine
even if you don't have one
maybe they really do
and who are you to say they're wrong?

i think i'll call this one "tolerance"
because that is what they call it, i think
when people don't act like shitheads to each other
for being different from what you think
is the right way to be.

you don't get to decide for them.

Monday, January 20, 2014


if i got to decide
(which i don't)
but if i did
i would say
we all should
vote for ourselves
and make it

fuck anonymous

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

i made a poem while out walking the dog today

too cold...
no traffic no birds
everything is quiet
except my footsteps
on frozen ground
futile attempt
to tread lightly...

Saturday, December 28, 2013

you don't have to fuck the rich, they've already fucked themselves

but was it worth it?
to turn gifts of love to gold
now gold is all that remains?
did it ever buy you
anything worth having?

Sunday, December 15, 2013

happy holidays, y'all

christmas always sucked. with the little charlie brown tree mom picked up for deep discount (sometimes free) on christmas eve, i would wrap my baby blanket around its base, hoping maybe we could have a happy holiday, just once... but that never happened. not really. never got the presents i wanted, well except that one year there was a mountain of presents, after the parents divorced, and everyone must have pitched in to help us have presents under the tree. but the giant size barbie i wanted most of all turned out to not be near as much fun as the ad on teevee made it seem. that year, i got what i wanted and christmas still sucked. so i kinda quit doing the holidays when i was old enough to stay home when the family went visiting relatives or whatever... just wasn't with it. the bad boys got all the cool toys because their parents had money. santa was a fake. it just totally sucked and i wanted no part of it.

and then...
many many years later, decades later, in fact.
something magical happened! i had children of my own! and a mission to not let christmas suck for them like it always did for me. and it took me a while, but i started actually enjoying the decorations, and the cookies, the songs, and even the gift-giving. last year was the best christmas, ever! so this one won't suck, either. because my children taught me how to enjoy their childhood, since i never did really enjoy my own.

peace on earth
goodwill toward men
and women and children
and all the little critters, too

(added the following as an afterthought)

i still wrap that same blanket around the base of our tree. except the year meriel wouldn't let me take it from her for that purpose, because she had claimed it for her own.

i remember when i got that blanket, too. dad was working at macy's so was in the parade. i guess it was where monica was born, she was still a baby. not petersburg, somewhere close to there, can't remember. so we went to watch the parade and it was real cold. a stranger gave me that blanket, just out of the kindness of his heart, to help keep me warm.

so that blanket i guess was my reminder that i needed reminded of today. i took it with me to college. somehow, even through the first marriage, when i left just about everything i owned behind, i held on to that blanket a stranger gave me when i was very small. one small act of kindness that always stayed with me.

Friday, December 13, 2013

to be free...

wishes are wasted
on trivial things
like fame and fortune
and success

you can dream bigger than that

some people never learn:
gifts are meant to be given away,
and when you use them for profit,
or personal gain, or to hurt people,
you don't get any more of them.
but when you share them freely
they will take us one step closer
to that which we all wish for
the freedom to be ... to be free

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

but wait! there's more!

and i can call it poetry
and you can pretend
it's not about you

here be monsters!

ego is a self defense mechanism too?
and we build these defenses for protection
but what they do is imprison us
and hurt anyone who gets too close

conscious awareness would seem to be
the answer to the question nobody is asking.
so there's denial involved, which says
there is nothing to be aware of,
go back to sleep.

i know the way
to where?
nobody wants to go
here be monsters!

i can't go there for you,
but i can show you my scars

ahhhh... the scars...
they prove i can heal.
the scars where
defenses used to be.
they aren't gone though
they don't ever go away
my awareness only means
it can't control me anymore

Saturday, December 7, 2013

who you gonna follow?

it's kinda like somebody who was born blind gonna describe colors to you. it's not that they aren't intelligent enough, it's just that they lack the experience from which to draw any conclusions that really count.

in a world of colorblind people, i'm certain those who see color would be considered insane.

and the attempt to make it stop, to not be such a freak, to pretend like you don't see the pretty colors that nobody else can see, that would turn anybody insane. for real.

and then someday science might prove to the colorblind world that color really does exist, and the oppressed and persecuted crazy color-seers were right all along...


or maybe they would rather find some special light therapy that would blind those who see color, and put them out of their misery.

anything to make it stop

Thursday, December 5, 2013

hush now

did you hear that?

a whispered memory
of a promise made
very long ago?

no, it was
at all

maybe the breeze
stirred the tatters
this raggedy shirt
my favorite one
don't know why
i can't throw it out

Friday, October 18, 2013

smoke and mirrors, again

it's a model
a representation 
of what is real, 
because the models 
can be controlled
bought and sold.
truth is free
it has to be.

copy/paste from recent conversations elsewhere

you can't buy spiritual wisdom, it's not for sale. you can buy books, and you can read about other spiritual people all you want, and you can repeat the things you heard people say about it, and you can take classes even, it is not the same thing as living your own truth. nobody can give it to you what is already yours, but they can sell you a bucket o' bullshit, and if you pay enough for it you will swear you like it and even try to convince other people to buy some too.

and if you can afford the really expensive bullshit, then you might get yourself a certificate or some other qualification to start selling bullshit of your own to other idiots just like yourself, who are too fucking afraid to find their own truth. it's safer that way, and that grants some people special status above other people who can't afford the fancy stuff.


i think most people are basically good, and don't really want to hurt anybody. that's why they get so upset whenever anybody points out how their words and actions do sometimes hurt.

and so, rather than admit how they been tricked and played for fools, they must pretend their actions don't hurt anybody, and to discredit and destroy those who might raise their voices in a chorus of pain and anger that nobody wants to hear.


i think the stupid is an act.

fear is the real problem.
fear makes people act stupid.

Friday, October 4, 2013


being a juggler of clowns
is still just a part of the show
fancy parlour tricks done just so...
to entertain those in the know

Saturday, September 21, 2013


of things
yet to come
for you
the rules
don't count
time goes
out of order

Friday, September 20, 2013

you didn't really want to hear what i think, you just wanted to tell me i'm wrong

so crawl
back into your box
your deep dark hole
where you feel safe
where even the very idea
of freedom is banned
not allowed a voice
and cutting down trees
is called progress
because you can make
more boxes with them
so nobody is free, ever
and you can tell yourself
it's for their own good

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

why do rich people like to sit around and talk about what poor people need?

healing happens.

you can't make healing happen.
but you can stop doing things
that prevent healing from happening.

we don't need any more answers 
and solutions that don't work.
what we really need

is to ask better questions.

the trophy

someone left it
on the ground
in the park,
made of latex
and full of goo,
one fine morning
there were two!

Monday, September 9, 2013


how about, instead of supporting more institutions that serve to indoctrinate the youth into control-based society, we start supporting the mothers whose job is to care for them? how about, instead of sending those institutionalized youth off to prison when they make bad decisions, we start asking ourselves what happened to them that disabled their decision-making abilities in the first place? when do we stop coming up with solutions that never work because we aren't asking the right questions?

Thursday, September 5, 2013

divide and conquer

driving divisive rhetoric home
with emotional mindwash
so nobody will notice
political agenda at the wheel

be afraid...
there's always something
they want you to fight
join the group...
because you can't have war
without picking sides
fight the evil...
instead of working together
to solve any real problems

"you are either with us or you are against us"
how dare you not join the party! heretic!
off with her head!

Saturday, August 24, 2013

well.... bless your heart

i'm sorry all your heroes hated women
maybe they weren't all that, after all.
i'm sorry all your favorite books suck
because the female characters are flat
dull boring lifeless two-dimensional
or maybe just pure evil.
and i'm real sorry you think i should agree
that these things are acceptable
because they really aren't.

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

not to anyone in particular

so is your friend
able to think for himself?
who does he work for?
the ministry of misinformation?
or does he just get his opinion
straight from propaganda outlets?
reading his remarks
made me feel like winston smith.
next thing you know
he'll be threatening us with rm101...

Thursday, July 4, 2013

july 4 annual rant

not quite sure how your professed religion of love fits in with your celebration of war today. if you wanna send out some love, send it to everyone who has been beaten down and oppressed for your illusion of freedom and superiority, send it to the soldiers that are dropping bombs on folks who never did anything wrong but to be poor and live in an area rich with resources that those in control of our government want, send it to the politicians who send those soldiers off to kill somehow thinking "thou shalt not kill" doesn't apply to them and their armies. maybe send the most love to yourself, so that you might heal from the mindrape inflicted upon all citizens of such a "free" society that allows you to not only accept such abuses, but to defend them.

Wednesday, July 3, 2013


war is the expenditure of resources, including human lives (the best and the strongest healthy young men), to create debt with which to enslave the masses to the war machine through taxes. that's the part the history teachers leave out. they don't tell you about how war is the fastest way of transferring the world's wealth from the poor to the rich. armed conflict isn't the only kind of war that is waged by us, against us and our planet, but it is the showiest and the scariest and is relentlessly marketed to the masses as something "for the greater good"

Thursday, June 27, 2013

rights and liberties are piss-poor substitutes for freedom

words on paper
permission to be
a face in the crowd
a voice in the chorus
singing the praises
of privileges granted
by words on paper

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

giving thanks, every day

the control game self-destructs. 
the system is tearing itself apart.

as the system rips itself apart, 
more and more people 
are selling 
more and more fear 
in a last ditch attempt 
to maintain control. 

we don't have to live our lives 
defined by other people's fears.

those who are afraid will manifest their own worst nightmares as reality. we don't have to follow along on their bad trip.

when we allow ourselves to be led,
we don't get to choose where we are going.
it's up to us. all of us. each of us.

Monday at 1:02pm 

Monday, June 10, 2013

yesterday's facebook rant

when people allow themselves to be led, they don't get to decide where they are going.

i dreamt about giving birth last night. twice, two different/same dreams about having a baby. not a reliving of my own two very different birth experiences, something different. but like the birth of my second daughter attended by midwives at the hippie farm, these not-my-births were so very empowering. and i woke up with the realization that is what frightens people (the men who are in charge of hospitals and governments and armies and such) the most about natural childbirth, that a woman, even a teeny tiny little woman like myself, can do such a thing and not only live through it, but actually want to do it again. their power only comes from their size, or their wealth, but not from any inner fortitude. that's what frightens them. that is why we are a threat, to be beaten down into submission. because unleashed, what might that kind of power do? they are afraid, and don't realize real power isn't about hurting other people. so they puff themselves up, to appear larger, stronger, more powerful by the standard definition, to compensate for all that fear eating them up inside. that's what i think.

i think bullies are cowards. i think the fear is what makes them dangerous, because strong emotional triggers serve only to turn off the brain.

no matter how big and dumb you are, no matter how many guns you have, you can't command the continuance of the human species. that is up to the women. that frightens them, too. so they call it "murder" to decide not to have a baby, etc. and they treat pregnant women like inmates and hospitals are run like prisons, all just to dehumanize the women, to put us in our place, beneath them.

Sunday, June 9, 2013 at 9:07am

Saturday, June 1, 2013


to organize
and pick sides
is to join the war
rather than resisting it.
and it doesn't matter
which side
thinks they won,
when it's about war,
everyone loses.


anything is possible
nothing is certain

control or be controlled
are not the only options

Thursday, May 23, 2013

without belief in a one-world-religion, the people are not going to buy a one-world-government.

those who can only see their reflection are effectively blind.

it is the nature of the brainwash program to deny that it even exists. because once you recognize the attempt to control your mind, it doesn't work anymore.

religion is the objectification of spiritual experience, which is purely subjective. as such, it is a flawed model, inacurrately reflecting what is true, and not truth itself. models can be useful, but not when they get confused with that which they are reflecting. even the most perfect mirror can only give you an ass backwards reflection of what is real.

 and like all the other models, religion, government, social structure, all of them, they are all about control, and do not factor freedom into the equation. freedom throws it all out the window, if people were to decide for themselves.... well, then all those people who make it their job to decide for everyone else would be out of work.

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

assimilate and die

(from monday, may 20, 2013, originally posted at facebook)
historically, the goal of authority has always been to substitute your subjective decision-making ability with objective law. if people don't believe in their own inner wisdom, it might as well not even exist. this is how you rule the world, through fear.
some even go so far as to deny there is any subject. we are all one (hive mind, borg)
people who are never allowed to make any decisions for themselves never learn how to make good decisions, keeps them dependent upon authority to tell them what to do.
they fear freedom because it isn't predictable. freedom would open up a world of infinite possibility, and those who seek the power to control (as well as those who have been beaten into submission by those control freaks) are too afraid to see what a wonderful thing that would be!
their fears will manifest their own worst nightmares as reality. that's gotta suck for them, real bad. you think they'd figure it out, but the fear prevents any rational thought from happening.
they start off by creating shame, by saying all people are basically evil and need to be controlled, or else horrible things will happen... (fear of freedom)
but every mother knows that babies aren't born evil. evil things have to happen to them to make them be that way. so women are targeted, as being the most evil, and need to be controlled most of all.

if it ain't free, it ain't freedom

"war is peace" etc.
paradox? or mindsplit?

(see also: cognitive dissonance)

you guru friend
not guru, wannabe
is full of shit.

but you already knew
what i think about that.

we weren't born
to obey the rules.
we were born
to live our life
our own lives
not The One
someone else
chose for us.

(monday, may 20, 2013)

Tuesday, May 7, 2013


day and night
don't fight
they take turns

Friday, April 19, 2013


i don't believe in atheism
but that doesn't mean
it might not be true, for you

Saturday, April 6, 2013

a world of infinite possibility

the meaning of life
is that you get to decide
what your life means.
there are no wrong answers,
except the ones other people tell you.
*and* you get to change your mind
at any time for any reason.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

smoke and mirrors

thoughts exist.
before the words.
words reflect thought.
they are not thoughts.
they are just words.
an imperfect mirror, at best.

we wrap ourselves
in the comfort of the mirror-world
created by the language
that has been engineered
to make us want to stay
inside the funhouse,
looking at twisty reflections
of what is real,
afraid to break free.

Thursday, January 24, 2013

true believers

what every religion preaches,
and what most people who call themselves religious forget,
is for you to listen for the voice of god within your own heart,
and to place no other voice above it.
if you aren't doing that, you're doing it wrong.

you have a direct line.
you don't need anyone to interpret or translate the message.
it speaks for itself.

the heart is the vessel, the cup, the holy grail.
they went looking in all the wrong places
for something they already had all along.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

just because we've all been fooled doesn't make us fools. what makes us fools is if we keep letting it happen over and over again.

rebel yell

the followers must follow
diluting the message,
watering it down
making it near meaningless.
this allows the organizers
to organize,
to be in charge,
manifesting more control
rather than the freedom
proclaimed by the rallying cry.

been there done that before
let's try something different

this time

Friday, November 23, 2012

ready for peace? freedom!

...a better brainwash program will never bring peace. but when authority talks about "peace" what they really mean is submission, and they are starting to realize how ineffective physical violence is, so they will try some nicer, more acceptable abuses, until they realize that won't work either, and that humans have an instinct towards freedom that cannot ever ever be destroyed. 

Thursday, November 22, 2012

happy thanksgiving

happy thanksgiving, everyone! it reminds us how there's enough for everyone when we share, when we aren't greedy and selfish and think the world owes us something.

apparently there are those who would tell me how i should feel, that this day should remind me of the attempted destruction of everything i love and believe in. they want me to be angry, and to pick their side, and fight somebody else's war. but there's no sense in that. not on thanksgiving. that's not what it's about, that's not what it was ever about, and if they would stop listening to the bullshit being programmed into their heads, and start listening to the spirits of their own ancestors, which is in their blood, they would know truth from lies, and there would be no reason for war.

thanks giving means you give thanks. this is how i pray. i don't ask the gods for favors, i thank them for the blessings i have received (even the ones that sometimes look more like a curse). it is important to me to do this, not just one day a year, but every day. but this one day a year i do get to share this practice with you all who might pray different than i do. thank you, all y'all.  ♥

Monday, November 12, 2012


sometimes one expletive just isn't enough.

they know that war only serves to transfer all the world's wealth from the poor to the rich. they know that creates debt, which enslaves all of us to the war machine. they know that we wouldn't need to demand rights from the government had they not already taken our freedom away. they know that freedom of religion never applied to anybody but christians, and freedom of speech never applied to anyone who didn't agree with the government. i know they know.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

the same players are playing both sides against each other

violent revolution serves only to build a new system of control when the old one fails (as a flawed system is always doomed to fail), so the game never ends.  but we don't have to do it that same way again.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012


they will tell you exactly 
whatever they think you wanna hear.
you will eat it up faithfully, 

obediently without question.

humpty bumpty sat on a wall
puffed up big for to take the fall
from up there, couldn't believe what he saw
the shame prevented him from telling us all

Monday, October 15, 2012

why are they always telling us what to think?

if people started thinking for themselves, 
that would put all the people-programmers 
out of business. they don't want that to happen, 
they do tend to make lots of money telling you 
what to think. so there's backlash, 
much more urgent programming, 
when people show any signs of life. 
they want you to be afraid. don't let that stop you.

oct 9, 2012

Friday, October 12, 2012

divisive rhetoric is not debate, no matter how many times they call it that

government is nothing more than words on paper, written by liars and thieves. does anyone really expect us to believe that it matters which liar wins the race to nowhere? or do they just expect us to be afraid and stay quiet, don't think too much about it, and go back to work. 

how much money have they spent on this election campaign? and they talk about caring about people? if they really cared about people, couldn't they come up with better ways of spending all that money? 

just because we have all been fooled does not make us fools. what makes us fools is if we continue to let it happen again and again and again.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

worth the effort

dig deep,
the truth is buried
under all that BS

the bigger the pile of crap,
the more they must want
to keep the truth hidden
from us all.

Saturday, October 6, 2012

more pride

you don't have to be seen in church 
to be a good christian.
and you don't have to be a christian 

to be a good person.
and you sure don't have to hate on christians, 

then call yourself tolerant.
belonging to any particular group 

does not make you better than them.

why do i hear a chorus of 
"but we really are better than them" 
ringing in my ears?

we have to believe that our group is superior, 
or else there's no reason to be in it. 
and if we aren't in the group, 
that makes us like them other ones 
who aren't in the group, the bad guys.

or would you rather i post more bob dylan songs 
so you can hear the words 
without listening to what he's trying to say?  

more ignore ants

it's called an emotional trigger
and it serves to turn off your brain
you don't have to let it work

there are other options
besides control or be controlled
but to speak of them is heresy
unthinkable! not allowed.

emotions are not your enemy
to be conquered and controlled
it is okay to be human, to feel
without being controlled

but we aren't supposed to say that
some might call it "negative" thinking
or a sin, or something
to do your own thinking for yourself

you aren't allowed to tell people to think
you are only allowed to tell people what to think

and the easiest way to do that,
to tell people what to think
is to make use of emotional triggers
because that turns off their brains  

Friday, October 5, 2012


we have to believe that our group is superior, or else there's no reason to be in it. and if we aren't in the group, that makes us like them other ones who aren't in the group, the bad guys.

and if you aren't in the group, who is gonna tell you what decisions to make? and if nobody is telling you what to do, uh....
and if nobody is telling you what to do, then you can't blame anybody else...
and if you can't blame anybody else, there wouldn't be any shame. and if there weren't any shame, there wouldn't be any pride. and if it weren't for pride, we would have no reason to belong to the group anymore...


Saturday, September 22, 2012

pride and prejudice, status and privilege

the winners of war write history
and they make themselves the good guys
and the other guys they make the bad guys
but those other ones

they didn't think they were the bad guys
such twisted history creates shame
because abuse demands that you blame
somebody else...

Friday, September 14, 2012

dance! sing! let your voice be heard (repost)

just because *you* can't hear the tune
doesn't mean there is no music at all

and those who question the official doctrine
are branded as heretics
and their words are censored
lest anyone hear what they are trying to say
and start to question authority.
and the fear that binds
is enforced through threats
of whatever might do the trick:
you will be kicked out of the group,
you will be alone, unhappy,
or suffer eternal damnation
should you not repent and beg forgiveness
for the sin of doing your own thinking.

friendstacy, 27 june, 2010

originally posted here:

Thursday, September 6, 2012

how to control people and rule the world

1) divide people up into groups,
2) set those groups to fighting each other.
3) collect taxes from them all to pay for it.

it takes two eyes to have depth perception

the right eye
doesn't fight
with the left
over which image
to believe is true
they work together

we don't have to agree.
maybe we just see things
a little different,
from different perspectives.

you don't speak for me

they have bajillions of dollars to advertise their political campaign. why are you doing it for free? are you being paid for your opinion?

and couldn't they think of better ways of spending all that money, IF they really wanted to help people?

if their opinion is bought and paid for and if they don't really want to help people, how can you say any of them represents you?

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

be here now? forgive and forget? i don't think so

the past follows you where ever you go.

you can't see where you are going
if you don't know where you have already been. 

denial never made any of the bad stuff go away. 
it's when you stop denying it 
that you can make it stop.

thinking only positive thoughts 
and not looking to the past
is a trick to keep you in your place.

demand a better future
it's your right

Monday, August 13, 2012

follow the leader

you aren't using it.
might as well
sell your soul
to the devil.

but don't tell me
what to do
with mine.

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

programmed people are too predictable

so the policy makers
they tell the media
what to tell us to think
then they tell the law makers
what to tell us to do

if you control people's minds
you don't have to worry so much
about controlling their actions
that's already taken care of
ahead of time

quoting myself

group people up, set those groups to fighting each other, and the war never ends.

fear and war

war is not peace
slavery is not freedom
propaganda is not truth

and we still aren't allowed
to talk honestly about brainwash
because people are still afraid.
if they weren't afraid,
it wouldn't still be working.

peace, y'all

Sunday, July 22, 2012

last friday...

law is discriminatory by nature. it is how the dominant group rewards themselves and punishes those who are different.

laws don't prevent crimes, laws create criminals.

if somebody wants to shoot a theatre full of people, do you really think it matters to him if there's a law against him having a gun?

but most of the people committing heinous acts against humanity aren't breaking the law, they are working for the lawmakers.

just doin' they job

Monday, July 2, 2012

reruns (from my old blog at gaia)

independence? WTF?!!
Posted on Jul 4th, 2009 by boogie : anarchist boogie
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for July 04, 2009:

in 1776, a bunch of rich white guys got together, see. and they made a contract with some other rich white guys on the other side of the ocean, see. and they signed this contract between themselves, giving them authority to control people's lives. but i didn't sign that contract. i wasn't there. my ancestors didn't sign that contract, either. they were deliberately left out of the proceedings altogether. but somehow, everyone thinks it's binding. it don't even obey it's own rules!

so we had this here "revolutionary war" (which is really strange, as both "sides" instead of fighting each other, were simply killing off the natives in vast quantities to clear the land for exploitation). and this war created a huge debt. and this debt enslaved the population to the banks, and to the very king they claimed "independence" from!

wait! what the fuck was the question again? hahahaha
"independence" is a joke, but it's not very funny. it's one of those words that means the exact opposite what we are told it means. like liberty, and justice, and rights. it's a trick. a con. maybe that's why they call it the CONstitution?

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

if all my friends had to agree with my political views, i wouldn't have any!

you can't reasonably expect government to ever solve the problems that its existence creates.

you *can* deny the real cause of the problem and focus in on medicating the symptoms, but that won't ever make anything any better.

you *can* deny the past, live in the now, and forgo choosing your own future, but that won't ever make anything any better, either.

a new improved better brainwash program won't solve the problems of having a brainwashed society. and there is no good government that will ever come to save us from the bad government. there never was, and there never will be. 

Friday, June 22, 2012

ignorance is no excuse, and denial don't make it right

ignore-ants fucking up my world, living in fear, thinking only good thoughts, never choosing for themselves, always following the leader, denying truth in favor of pretty-sounding bullshit...

the hive mind is shattered
into a million pieces
just like the minds
of those who still defend it
not seeing the prison for what it is
and allowing it to self destruct

threats and intimidation
are the only weapons bullies have.
those threats only work
to control and manipulate us
if we become afraid.

fear, shame, denial

so the farther up the pyramid you go,
the more they know about what's really going on,
which would create more shame on them for doing it,
which keeps them from saying anything about it.

the wardens live in the same prison as the rest of us, 
they just get rewarded with status and special privileges 
we don't get.

ad hominem

i heard somebody talkin' smack about me again
it's not the first time and it won't be the last
people who know me know it's not true
and those who don't know me
...why should they care?




they are playing you all 
like pawns in their game. 
you don't even rank 
as high as a bishop, 
and they sacrifice them 
all the time. 
you are just a number.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012


religion built a wall
inside your head
of bricks made
from doubt and fear.

and the miracles
and the angels
all the other magic too
hid behind it.

and you can pretend
those things aren't real
so you can go to work
not knowing.

be afraid.
do not question.
know your place.
play the role chosen for you.
obedient slave!

Friday, April 20, 2012


i fucking hate bullshit
and the stupid fucking games
that some fucking people play
even after they been called on it
that fucking sucks

Monday, April 9, 2012


they torture the righteous
and after they die
turn them into heroes
dead heroes
instead of honoring
the ones who are still here
they torture them too
hoping they'll die
so they can become
a new dead hero

and who gets to decide?
those who were too afraid
to make the torture stop
when they had the chance
those who remained silent
to the point they forgot
they even have a voice at all

and what are they deciding?
to let the abuse continue
to let fear rule the world
to sell their soul
for what might be
what they think they want now
and let somebody else decide
what the future will be

the future is not ours
it belongs to the children
let them decide

Sunday, April 8, 2012

domesticated people

they don't know any better.
they think it's helping
when they try to break your spirit.
they don't know any better.
and if you try to tell them
that's when they get mad.
they don't know any better.
they seem to think that everyone
should want to be just like them.
they don't know any better.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

brainwash U

who gets to decide?
that's always the important question
according to plato, the state does
because we aren't capable
of deciding for ourselves
and according to plato
it is our education
that prevents us from being able
to decide for ourselves
which enables government rule
it's all in there, in the republic
especially in the parts they skip
the teachers who are in charge of our education
they don't want us reading that bit

Friday, February 3, 2012

be at peace my dear friend

17 april 2010

poem for dave
by friendstacy

threats and intimidation are the only weapons bullies have.
those threats only work to control and manipulate us if we become afraid.

it's all the same,
whether it's the government and their armies.
the bankers and their money.
the church and their divine punishment, hell, or karma.
the courts and their laws.

they demand obedience, OR ELSE!

only cowards could support a system based upon fear.
a system based upon threats and intimidation,
punishments and rewards,
a system designed to prevent people
from thinking for themselves
and making their own decisions.

it was real hard to talk about things
that disagreed with the mass mind-control propaganda,
the so-called "public opinion" created by media
and schools and churches
and all the other abusive institutions of societal control.
but dave wasn't afraid.
i'm not afraid anymore.
thanks dave!

Sunday, January 29, 2012

respect the earth

all land is sacred...
maybe not to those
whose religions preach
a better somewhere else
after you die.
respect the earth
and those of us who love her.
is that too much to ask?

Thursday, January 26, 2012

war is not peace

war does not secure freedom of any kind.
what war does is expend resources
(destroy land, use up money,
burn fuel, kills people)
to create debt. debt is slavery,
in this example it takes the form of taxes.

war is *not* peace
slavery is *not* freedom
and propaganda is not truth

and sometimes i cry
and sometimes i don't

Tuesday, January 24, 2012


pain is your body's way of telling you something is wrong. medicating the symptoms won't ever address the cause, neither will ignoring it or pretending it isn't so bad.

when i was in constant chronic pain, i had no idea what a pain-free life would be like, but i had to believe it could happen before i could make it happen.


standard format for people programming: tell them what they want to hear, puff them up, tell them they are smarter or somehow better than other people because they believe x, y, z... then even if they don't agree with y and z they won't admit that because they did agree with x and they want to think they are in the winning group, superior to the losers in that other group.

use vague meaningless words, or just make up new words

threaten them with whatever you think they fear most should they choose not to go along with whatever the group demands of them.


problem is, once you start to recognize the brainwash techniques, you notice that it's everywhere.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

the key to the future,_Tennessee (you'll have to check the link after their little protest thing) ...because i'm sick of hearing lopsided news all the time. this is the world i see. when i was a little girl, copperhill was the deadest place i had ever seen, not a single living thing, no plants, nothing. it's green there now. i remember used to be there was piles of old tires on the banks of creeks and streams, mountains of garbage on the side of the road was not an unusual site to see. it's not there anymore, everything is green. there are birds of prey inhabiting my suburbian neighborhood. never saw them around here back then either. big fat healthy birds. tell me again how the world is supposed to end? do you really believe that?

but that's no excuse for them to keep cutting down all the trees. f*ing idiots never heard of easter island?

‎(friendstacy said before)
the sad thing is that people believe (quote) "The sad thing is that this used to be "the land of the free and the home of the brave".

it never was. what people can't see is how things really are getting better. while the image being presented through media etc is becoming more real, making it look like it's getting worse.

hey i know some of y'all remember that oily slime that would float on top of the water in the river? sure, the ag runoff is real nasty and you can't see it, but it used to be so much worse. things are getting better.

healing happens when you take away the stuff that hurts. healing happens in its own time. you can't force it, you can't make it happen, but you can stop doing things that prevent healing from happening. that is your choice.

just look... see things the way they are and not the way the propaganda machine thinks you should see. it's very exhausting, to plow through the BS constantly, because it is everywhere. but you do have eyes of your own and a mind of your own, too. use them wisely. they are the key to your future, and if you aren't using that key, who is?

Friday, December 23, 2011


i have never seen a herd of bison
i've never seen a single bison up close
but i know exactly what they smell like

there's something inside me
that can't be defined
by holding the right papers.
no matter what you think about me,
you can't change who i am.
it's not about picking sides,
it's about being true to myself.

if you can't hear the voices of your ancestors
maybe that's because
you are too busy telling everybody else
that their ghosts aren't real.

Friday, November 18, 2011

smart monkeys
manufacturing death
for the merchants of war
and if they do a really good job
of killing lots of people
they get the nobel war prize
but if you call it "peace"
people don't take offense